I am sorry muslim bhai...

/*please pardon me if i hurt anyones sentiments...*/

4 days post the terror attacks in mumbai...I finally set foot out of my house with a purpose...not to show my courage to the world but to collect my hall ticket from college and spend time with my friends during the course of the process...

As usual i kept my friends waiting at thane station and unlike most people i dont hurry if people are waiting for me...so i was leisurely looking around in the train checking out the people inside ...everybody was busy with themselves or with those around them and most of them were busy talking abt the recent events and abt experiences that they got to hear of from those directly involved with the event...

my journey to thane is via 2 routes the fast track that is a no halt dombivli to thane travel and the slow track that halts at kopar(where no one lives) ,diva (where no one can live) mumbra (a location densely populated by muslims) ,kalva(a small place yet so many people get into the train from there is always something to think about) and thane which is my destination.
by now i am sure most readers would have an idea of where i am going with this.

So... me in the train watching people ,listening to music and also avoiding calls from my restless impatient friends at thane...:p
The train arrives at mumbra and suddenly i sense a complete change in atmosphere or vibes in the train...there is silence but not a comforting one to say the least...everyone in the train is looking at the people boarding with the most suspicious looks they can possibly carry... those coming in have the most innocent look that they can carry ...those inside were making space so that those boarding could comfortably come in (which if u are unaware of train travelling in mumbai is very unusual)...and if someone boarding had a big bag you could almost feel the tension inside the compartment...

surprisingly I was also doing the same...i was constantly looking at a guy visibly restless(bhai log dont shift tracks here..:p ) and in return he was looking at me as though he was sayin.."äb maine kya kiya"...
but i could not help but look at anyone entering the bogey non-suspiciously...there was this alertness in me to look around ...check their baggage...etc.
the train journey continued to thane with just a little buzz in the train and without much talk...but it was a thought provoking situation...and i did think about it until my friends in thane pounded me for my delayed arrival..

The thought i had is what the title reads...
post 26/11 there are many very observable things that people talk about regarding its effects...the more evidently observable ones have been pointed out by most people or by media like bad politicians ,inefficient system,lack of security...etc.
But this is one thing that i have noticed (i am sure more have also) but would like to blog about...ie the outloook towards muslims in india.

Its not that muslims were in the best of terms with other religious sects in India...especially the majority in terms of religion (Hindus)
especially after so many religion oriented issues like the 93 blasts,the gujarat incident..etc. the muslims have always been in the notorious books of the majority religion more than any other religion.
To add to that our neighbours are also muslims with whom our relationship is worth having a highly patrolled LOC...
yet we few (open minded)indians somehow have the heart and space for muslims to live happily in the country and that the country is home to them as much as it is home to us...so much so that our best actor,actress and their deputies,cricketers, poets, writers ,politicians etc. and even one of my best friends during school days is a muslim...and they truly deserve the space and love we give and take...


But every time there is a terrorist attack ...guess who is behind those black masks...a muslim fanatic...
and then when u learn that they were living amidst us and planning an attack on us ...you just cant help but lose faith in them...for eg. when we learnt that they were living in the Nariman House building and planning the attack for 9 months ...you just begin to wonder who else could be doing it...
Every time you see a muslim you will be like...he could be a terrorist...

I would never believe anyone who said that if tomorrow 5 muslim men shifted as neighbours to his place he is gonna welcome them with as much sincerity and love as he would welcome someone of the other religion ...on the contrary i dont think people would like to have such neighbours and wouldnt be surprised if they had problems to sleep if they did...
suspicion levels are always gonna be high with them around...and there is no denying that fact...

But the thought provoking point is....DO THEY DESERVE THIS??
I am sure not every muslim dreams about blowing up this country... there surely are muslims who love living here,are as Indian as we are if not more,love other religious sects as we do,have friends and relatives following other religions,who would like others to see them as Indian muslims rather than muslim indians...

so i feel the answer is no...they dont ...
so now what...here is the deadlock point...
they dont deserve this for sure...but we just cant prevent ourselves from looking at them non-suspiciously after all that has happened in recent times...
so what is the solution to this...
As of now there is no solution of what I could possibly think of and hence the title to the blog...

Hopefully...things will change for the better in the future ... the other indians(if i may say) are definitely at this time closed minded(which has been forced upon them and not chosen by them)...and due to this closed mindedness we would surely act stupidly or irrationally towards the muslims in the near future...hopefuly not to an extent that its intolerable for them...
But with time i am sure this will open up and the bond between people will break the bonds between religions...ie.people treat each other for who they are and not whom they pray...but until such time...i just hope the muslims bear with the intolerance and partiality that we shall have till such a time comes...and dont react in a way that spoils any hopeful situation... since they are a minority,in a democracy minorities will never have it their way and will have to suffer a bit(i hope not more than what the word means)...i hope they can forgive us with an open mind as i know it is unfair towards them and be able to bear the discomforts they have during this period of distrust...hence i would like to apologize as its unfair on my part as well but i am forced to look at them differently...

"I am sorry muslim bhai..."

/*please pardon my grammar... and comments would be appreciated(preferably on the topic)*/

NEx'''®

i miss ipl...

ok...
believe it or not..all u ppl have to accept..
we are all missing ipl .... :(

the best thing that has ever happened to indian cricket...is on a temporary halt..
and the halt seems so long...2 days already yet

while i was watchin tv the other day i spent literally 15 min only surfing channels from 1 to 84 and back...the loop running into atleast 10 times...
only to realise that watching tv wasnt so tough sometime ago...

if it was anytime during the match....u wud watch the match...
if it was anytime without a match ... u wud watch a news channel that talks abt the match..
else u wud just browse arnd channels until u found something related to the match...

...that was the algo that was followed when the ipl was on...
now its only the else part that i have to do aimlessly...


it surprises me how our mind can get addicted to so many things in so less time...suprisingly so for someone so lazy like me...
ok the amplitude of my addiction might not be as high as drugs or cigarettes...but i do really feel uneasy when i stop wat i get used to ...
wic is then followed by extreme action to get over the addiction...

some past addictions would be..
1. gaming... those who know me will know my 'sthiti' when i was into DOTA...or even Ogame... but DOTA was clear winner... i hv gotten into crowded trains just to get home early to play dota...i hv literally had dreams abt tactics to win a game...i hv shelled money from my own wallet to get better speed on the internet...and have also fought with friends..:p
the extreme step: well some determination from my side...and viruses affecting those files of mine...

2.phone... this has not really been on the out to most ppl...but i have been a terrible addict to the phone as well... if i was home and i was not really busy.. i was on the fone...i wud call old friends.. new friends... make new friends on teh fone..or just call for the heck of it... {ps not that i am a person with a lotta things to say... but i wud still call...}
well part of the blame wud goto my mom for having worked in mtnl ..until one day even that dint help..when a 4.5k bill turned up..
the extreme step:well mostly i was yelled outta it...:p .... but other than that i wud try and keep myself with friends and stay with them...to keep myself from geting away from home...
and now i hardly goto the landline ever..

there are many more that i wud like to write abt but lets just end it at this...coz thats not the basic point...


well...neither is this...but the basic point being how the hell does one get into a addiction..
thats not it...heres the bigger question...
how the hell do such things always happen when something more important must be given attention to at the same time....like an EXAM!!

Well ... there are many friends of mine whoc an tell u abt this...that the maximum frequency of dota games was during Exam time...and even more if it were the Main Exams...
our term wud be dry on dota till some time before the prelims...then it would start...then would come the prelims when it would become regular..PL its was a daily activity...EXAM time...well we called it a stress buster at home...but who cares..we were on it all day...and study when we got time outta it...

sunday ipl final...
monday SP paper...for wic i must say i was 20 % prepared by sunday morning and 40% before the paper...thats way below my average preparation...
generally i am 60-70% prepared for engg papers..
i have my strong points and weak points sorted out before the paper...so i can prioritise while attempting..
for this paper that i wrote...i was only familiar with the topics...and qeustions...
so when i got the question paper i attemted questions of not those whose answers i knew well...but those whose questions sounded familiar...
end of the day i think i hv just gotten through...fingers crossed!!

but its not that it was bound to happen... i had a good idea of the subject since i had gone for its class..i had a good recapitulation at my friends place 2 days ago...
i had a plan on how to go abt it on sunday...but then ipl final...i just cant resist..see the match end to end...+the presentation...+i check the news to see wat ppl had to say abt the match...yea and i also saw the closing ceremony...which thanx to the same friend to whose place i had gone for a revision, i missed half of it...only to learn something that saved me in the paper..:d

at the end of it all... i dont even regret wat i have done... somehow deep inside i feel it was worth it... wic if someone who cared abt me heard wud knock some sense into my head for having said that...

We spend so much time in our life prioritizing our stuff...some activities get a higher priority just because of our partiality towards them... which then happen more often.. then they become regular...then they become a habit... and then they become a necessity wic we all call ADDICTION!!

so WHERE do we draw the line??
or WHEN do we know its time to draw the line??
and HOW to draw the line??
and trust me when u r into it...some one really needs to thoroughly justify and convince you WHY to draw the line??


lets see wat ppl who read this wud have to say abt this...until then readers take care...and remember this...
" any form of addiction is bad"
-my papa (in between a game of dota...)

and by the way...EURO 2008 starts sometime mid june...;-)

Cut the CRAB!!

i had been to my cousins party today ...
family parties generally mean chicken and fish or a rare mutton dishes..
followed by desert for the kids and drinks for the men...
{{i do consider myself a man but not man enuf to drink in front of family...:p

thats wat is always expected and it never lets u down...atleast no one tries to...

But this time it was different....
with an ipl semi final on and and hurry to go home to prepare for my exams in 2 days....i was waiting for the food so that i can be done with it and leave asap...
so when dinner was ready i head to the dining table to check out wats cooked...

there was some fish, some mutton{{ which i dont really love as such...
and CRABS...
BIG ones ... in big pieces ie. the crabs were not whole...but u cud make out wic part was wic...
of all around me i seemd the most ecstatic...
coz the last time i had crab was the first time i had crab and it was years ago..
it was so long ago that i kinda knew i liked it but i dint really remember hot it tasted like or wats the technique to eat it...
but i knew i liked it...
and thats wat i told everyone...

the hosts asked me if i knew how to eat it...."obviously.." is wat i sounded like...
atleast to another cousin of mine...
so he asked me "how.."
so here is wat i say...

"its simple ... eat everything u can and throw the remaining..."
my confidence sure convinced him....
atleast he looked as if he got his answer....:p

so the meal starts i hv a few legs {{outta 8 in a crab i think..
some main body part pices and 1 piece of its hand...

the match was on..but most ppl had their eyes glued on me....
i knew the crab was soft inside and hard outside...
and soon i also realised that it was SHARP at the edges too...when his sharp clawlike hands carved a cut on my thumb...{{wic i realised when i was having the desert...
a cut right below my right thumb...the thumb that moves the most during exams...thus i knew it will take long to heal...
it seemed as if the crab was takin its revenge on me...but i am a clinical warrior..
i used both arm strength and jaw strength and my teeth to break thru the shells of the crab ....only to find the softest ,juiciest,most delicious and white flesh i hv ever seen or eaten trhoughout my life...
but it was HARD WORK...
it took me half an hour to get through half a crab...
most of the others gave up or dint take up the challenge in the first place....
but that was the sweetest food i had for more than one reasons...
as they say..."mehnat ka fal meetha hota hai"

my mom dint like the smell and my dad just dint wanna try...wic was quite surprising as he has eaten a large variety and a number of animals during his young days....
he said.." i havent tried it all my life and i dont wanna try now..." and gave a sly smile like a little kid who is tryin to hide something...

never the less... as areward for my hard work and persistence...i got to take 2 crabs home... so i hv invited akshay who eats underwater creatures only at my place and at select restaurants...

hope he does come...so that atleast ill be able to share the joy of eating a crab...
:d
tc readers .... and remember to CUT the CRAB ..carefully...

i am gonna blog from now....

yes...u read it right...
i am gonna blog...
not now...but from now on...:p

no it aint some inner voice askin me to do it...its just coz aamir khan and AB has made this thing cool...:d

another reason for this reopening session is because my comp is screwed up a little ...
cant play games on it...:(

the only thing worknig well is my net capable of browsing 3-tier architectures...{{{hihi...show off

also my friend nikhil is bloggin everyday... so thats spurred me to restart ... may be itll become a cool thing and we can setup a new trend so that hot girls think we are cool...:)

none the less... m back NETWALON!! so beware... i am gonna occupy server space...


ps:- if there is anyone who actually ends up readin this other than me...
m sorry for having put u thru this... but God will bless u for sure...
in case of any casualties dial me...986925root25root25

oooo...

aah...my first blog or watever its called...
as of now at this moment...just as i search for the keys to type...i am also tryin to figure out what to type...and why to type...
yet amongst all these thought the cursor on the screen is giving me clues of where wat i write is goin...

bah!! no i aint insane..someone told me to try blog and check out something...so i have with all my patience and deep thoughts{of distraction} written this crap...

hope i can get more shit into this thing....
rockin all they way...

NEx'''